in the end.

"love someone.
it doesn't matter if you suffer.
it doesn't matter if you cry.
it doesn't matter if you fight.
because in the end you'll be able to say:
i suffered, i cried, i fought.
but i loved you."

and

i feel like i know everything about you,
but have so much more to learn.

do what you have to do,

and

i will be here waiting when you're ready.

an aching fixture.

is it alright
to be so in love with somebody,
your heart aches

fortyfive.

forever.
it's everything i can give

godmother!

today was awesome.

1. i started my book the other day, and unlike every other time i've started writing a book, this morning i woke up and picked right back up where i left off - a sure sign that i'm actually interested in this one! i'm super excited about it.

2. i didn't want to have to go to work at alllllll tonight. i closed last night, i've been working since last friday with no day off. i didn't want to shiftlead. and on top of everything i got the dreaded table at 12:30 when our kitchen closes at 1. i was nice, of course, hoping against hope that i would get out of work at a decent hour. they were a party of 8 and had gratuity on their check, as our policy states. then, they left me $40 over grat! it was amazing. they were such nice people.

3. i get to be a godmother! my cousin asked me to be the godmother to his 8 month old daughter, Prema. i am so so so excited!! i was just thinking about how i wonder if i'll ever be someone's godmother or confirmation sponsor, or maid of honor, or anything of importance in a big ceremony like that, and now i will be! on october 17th i will get to become prema's godmother! it's super exciting and i'm absolutely honored.

4. i am off tomorrow - no work for me!

on the downside, i did cut my finger pretty deeply tonight at work and it's really bothering me now, so i'm going to stop typing and get some sleep!